Have you ever wondered what if life gave you a chance to revisit your past and change the way things played out. Would you change how things were or would you just cliche it and tell me your happy with your life and would not change a thing.
Im still see-sawing between whether I would change anything or cliche it. What would be the things I'd change if I went back to the me, that made me, me?
I would pay attention to the tiny details around me and the people that mattered to me. I wouldn't let go that easily. I have. Of a lot of people who mattered to me.
I would listen to my instincts more often. Six years back I had instincts that I doubted, I thought I was just imagining things the way I wanted it to play out. When in reality it was a perfect picture that everyone seemed to see but me, until now, six years too late. Always listen to your instincts! They know exactly what you want. Always.
I would love to stay as young and carefree i was in the first year of my college. Don't be afraid to live just for yourself. You owe that much to you.
I would make even more mistakes than what I have! MAKE MISTAKE AND CELEBRATE THEM. It means your living and not just moulding into the crowd. If I could, I would go back and be young, innocent, and be stupid with my friends, not affected by the complexities of the world.
ENJOY THE DRAMA :
I wouldn't reduce all the drama though. It made me feel alive! It made me feel. whether happy,sad, excited, jealous, hurtful, so-happyhigh-i-couldnt-remember-a-thing, or any other emotion! It dint matter.
All I know is I felt something, and that makes me happy now. Never be too comfortable with your life, such that you feel nothing. It kills to feel nothing. trust me.
I would tell people how much I loved them and would not let my insecurity get in the way. Its difficult you know practising things like
" live today like its your last day" because if I do that, and start sending people messages of the lovey-dovey sorts, they'd think I am cukoo. But nonetheless I wish I was more impulsive in expressing how I felt with different people I missed out on.
BE STUPID!
Do crazy things that seem random and get you awkward stares from older people. Your doing a good job if older people are looking at you awkwardly!! who cares ! you have the rest of your life to be grown up. So be stupid!
LOVE. That does not mean go sticking your tongue down every next persons throat. Im not advertising that here, and neither am i telling you to love like the movies around garden and trees. Find out what love means for you and keep at it!
When it comes down to love, Its always worth it. Whatever form. Whatever way you express it. No ones in a position to judge.
I wish I'd let the smaller things matter more to me, than letting the noise that surrounded it matter more. The noise never matters. Moments do. Small little gestures are things I remember now. I wish I'd have a cupboard full of those small things now, that make life a lot more happier and memories a lot more sweeter.
FORGIVE. I wish i had forgiven people easily. Its the worst to hold onto something against a person forever. I wish I had learned that forgiving made you and the other person happier. I have wasted a lot of my life, holding grudges against people. I should have forgiven them, because I look back, and I wasnt perfect either. No one is. To you guys out there, Just forgive. U'll grow up and years later you'd miss your friend, your partner,your family and not forgiving them would be the worst thing that would sadden you.
No one knows how to live life. I guess we are all just winging it as we go along.
I believe that Do-overs do come along, and thats when you trust your instinct and change decisions you made in the past. There is always hope for a little more love and a lot more mistakes :)
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